Thank you. Pittsburgh, you continue to be the city and team of many cities and countries around thw world.
You gave us heart when we couldn’t find ours.
Major injuries occurred and you continued to trudge through the mire, when it looked like all hope was lost – you continued to push through – push others to the forefront, have others take advantage of stepping up – and step up you did.
You gave us extra weeks we by all rights should not have had. You gavce us hope through injury, through abesences, and you showed what the black and gold means on and off the field.
Today’s game was a complete heart break yes, but Big Ben, you returning gave everyone the flame, on and off the team, of what is possible with heart.
Toussaint – you made some amazing plays all throughout the year and it is difficult to hold one fumble against you, but you realize the importance of ONE play, and the difference between third string and first string, that one play determined so much of our game today, but took nothing away from our season.
Bryant, Wheaton, Williams, and Heath, you stepped up when we thought we were at a disadvantage, and turned all into advantages. Defense, we love you. Brown, you always make us proud. Offense, you hung in there. Thank you Boswell for coming in and making a difference this year when we needed it. Jones, thank you for putting up with having to do the best you could do. Vic, sigh, sorry but I don’t any help that was long term.
Please please PLEASE – improve the one hit one tackle approach and don’t let crucial tackles slip by next year, please improve the punt returns and special teams ability, and please, PLEASE try to improve calling running plays when yardage is needed. Haley, I question your decisions sometimes, Tomlin, I don’t question and appreciate your honesty at press conferences.
This year has been so nerve wracking and it has been a great season due to the close calls, luck of the draw, dumb luck (Yup Sarah, you hit that right on the head), and the fan time we had watching games this season, it is what part of being a true Black and Gold fan is all about, the good, the bad, the ugly.
I am so impressed to see Carolina, Denver, and Arizona head to the Superbowl, and I do appreciate the Patriot fans, they are die hard fans for sure, but the team? Most people know how I feel, when a team has had so many questionable acts that have been brought to the NFL involving legality as the Patriots – I feel they are the least of all teams deserving of a chance at a 6th ring, the Patriots fans themselves deserve better. I am doing all I can to hope, pray, plead, and insure that any team, ANYONE could have a shot at the Superbowl worth the hard work, grit, and sweat it takes to add that next ring, as long as it is not the Patriots. Patriots to me are those loyal to a nation, a group loyal to a belief, loyal to the game of football. This is not the category I would, could, or ever will see the Patriots team in, the fans yes, the team, no.
From the 2007 illegal game taping, to illegal enhancement drugs used in 2007, to the 1986 injury reserve use, (illegal), to the 2013 false injury reports, to the 2002 illegal taping of a game, to the 2015 inflated balls incident, to the special clearing of a snow path for the New England kicker alone in 1982, and the rest to be honest,( I would say questionable or not valid accusations) but at least with the five that are rock solid, it hurts my heart to see a team be rewarded for so many trips to the NFL commissioner. Do other teams including the Steelers have questionable actions, heck yes. But to be fair, New England is the one team that had tried to do the most to cover those acts most blatantly, which I am sorry, is not what the game of football is truly defined by, with the Superbowl or what that Lombardi trophy was meant to represent.
Denver – you took advantage of opportunities that came your way and you earned your tickets, however, if you drop the number of passes you did today in the future, your future will be shortlived. I see Denver (with a tighetned team) and Arizona being the choice that would make this year’s Superbowl, but my gut is New England and Carolina – A Superbowl one to watch even without the Steelers as part of the equation.
Thank you for a great season Pittsburgh – and being the team of choice for so many!
Day Two Reading marathon, whoa, wow and WHEW! Sunday – Steller Steeler Sunday, two books down for the 24in48 hours marathon, blpwn away after reading All the Light We Cannot See, and anxious to reveal the stories of ancient Indian heads, preserved Indian artifcats, and the tales of France and Serbia should be great blog posts.
If nothing else, I have reaized through excess reading that there are so many stories we have to tell, sometimes it just comes out right and much better in reading ourselves. We are a storeroom of stories, and it is a gift to find a means for them to come out. Stay tuned for some stories that will connect with some of your own!
Yes, I was creative and crazy enough to do the Rock ‘N Roll Marathon in San Diego, and I loved it, and finished relatively well – finished and all! (and for a Great cause – Leukemia!)
Now, we are looking down the barrel of pages of the Reading Marathon, and it is now 6:16am! After checking in at the 6th hour, and pulling myself from sleep after starting 2 hours, it is easy to get back to it. Here was my answers to the check in :
Where in the world are you reading from this weekend?
Several places! PHYSICALLY reading from Mexico City! In my books reading from Elorium (A Grimm Legacy), Paris (All the Light We Cannot See), and Iowa (Early Warning!) ~
Have you done the 24in48 readathon before?
Never! This is my first time! ~
Where did you hear about the readathon?
From Kristen Dixie, a colleague at The American School Foundation in Mexico City! ~
What book are you most excited about reading this weekend?
All the Light You Cannot See (from it’s hype on New York Times list and more!) ~ Tell us something about yourself.
I love blogging at harrybrake.com, I love traveling, running XC, the outdoors, international/multicultural literature, photography, Repentino. magazine, networking, food, The Pittsburgh Steelers!, and that is just the beginning! ~
Remind us where to find you online this weekend. Find me at harrybrake.com, on Facebook at Harry Robert Brake, on Twitter at @Michigan01!
I think the world needs more proponents of literacy and creative ways to allow it to occur in so many ways, (my public statement done for this early). Back to reading and wherever you are, go ahead, jump in!
1988. Ten years old. I don’t remember a solid picture but I do remember in slow motion like a slideshow. My grandparent’s house in Shaler, dressed up and not understanding why – a long black limousine pulls up in the front of the house, I am gaping as a ten year old at this vehicle. Never been this close to one. Ever. Inside, it is like a small house, wondering what is happening and my grandparents and Mom reassuring me trying to calm me down as a hyper ten year old. (Ten year old? What about now?)
The room looks like it rises up to meet me – it is so large, it is packed with people, I mean PACKED. But I do see this – Steelers upon Steelers in uniform, with helmets – honoring Art Rooney‘s wife, Kathleen McNulty Rooney. It was a respect to a family that was humble and had humble beginnings. I remember the players striding by, seeing #12 brush me a simple ten year old wondering, how someone on television can be that close to you in reality. Legends.
I remember from that day on, realizing what the weekends meant watching the Steelers at my grandparents in Pittsburgh – it was more than a game after that frozen Rooney moment. From that moment on, the Pittsburgh Steelers were never JUST the Pittsburgh Steelers, I was raised on the Pittsburgh Steelers alongside the virtues of steel workers, the gridiron, working for everything you received, being humble and thankful for the rewards you received, giving back, and that was just a portion of what was reinforced alongside the game of football and specifically the Pittsburgh Steelers, it became a trait that was to be found in everything we did, in every waking day of our lives.
Fast forward – 1993-1995 – working as a DJ at the Edinboro University radio station, and you know, I had the deep voice that seemed to work well with being a radio host – I loved being in the radio station studio. I knew this is what I wanted to do. Those students a year above me not finding any jobs and myself a mess trying to find myself, with one semester left to graduate, I found myself leaving to Slippery Rock University and leaving a dream behind to pursue a career in education to hopefully sustain my future, aside from the landscaping business I helped run over the summer. Little did I know what coming to Slippery Rock University would do to tie me back to Pittsburgh.
1997. Slippery Rock University. An amazing young lady, Kim Miller, (Kim D at the time) – as an intern at the Pittsburgh Pirates, the only female, I knew to date, that was spectacular at what she did as a statistic intern for the Pittsburgh Pirates. The position was open following her year, and I was not needing to think about whether I wanted to do it for a second. I remember walking with Dr. McCarren into the stadium, meeting all the executives that would introduce me to the job at hand, and just, no words. Walking around the stadium in the back halls, on the field, in the dugout.
I was a Pirate intern that year, and I will never forget this night, EVER. The Three Rivers Stadium SHOOK. All that concrete, shook. It was The Houston Astros, and again, no words, you could feel the stadium shaking, I remember the autographed balls and cards from the players that night,
and STILL have priceless memories in storage, and remember Cordova and Rincon from Mexico saved the night – it was magical. It was a year of tragedy in my personal life, and yet, there were these moments that just – changed so much about me. Steve Blass, Bob Walk, Willie Stargell that year as part of the Pirate organization (back!), Lanny Frattare, and my boss, Marc Garda – there was nothing like it – it was an honor to see so many things, (even exploding hot dogs from the Pirate Parrot) aimed at us
(this is where I received my first experience of mascots and what power they have on an audience – sound familiar?)…
the classic conversations on-air and hearing them live among the broadcasters, Kurt Engle coming to the booth, seeing and keeping the first scorecard Bob Walk ever completed from a game, and so much memorabilia I have in storage, it was not just an intern – it was a personal experience, tied to the expectation of carrying on what an amazing job Kim Miller set in place, and that was the reason Slippery Rock students were so treasured with the Pirates, they carried that integrity with them and we were expected to inherit that expectation in and out of the game as well in what we did. A Pittsburgh tradition.
Jason Kendall, and so many more after a night’s game, I was amazed at how casual converstions were and amazed at how “human” the players really were. Many notes were passed and given and one truly stands out right now:
Lanny had alot also going on in his life, as did all the announcers, yet Lanny and everyone always remembered to keep me moving forward with my life despite the things that try to hold you from “rounding the bases.”
What I was learning was that despite being powerhouses in the Pirate organization, when you put your heart in whatever you do, your spirit, your trust, your everything, nothing but good will eventually occur over the bad – taught to me by Marc Garda, showing me that everything, even the smallest detail mattered, to Doran Check, who inspired me to know that the person behind the scenes is often the most important – all the announcers and former/current players of the Pirates that year, the lessons that had been instilled from the Rooney family, that conflicted with all the negative things that could possibly happen, and given the choice to succumb to the negative or rise above it – all was still associated with what Pittsburgh, not just a city, not just a team, but the way you lived your life, came to mean.
Despite almost losing my belief in being able to ride out some pretty rough waters, near death experiences, and so many times I should have never been able to make it through, I was carried through these times thanks to the love and concern of those around me, whether my friends as we travelled through Slippery Rock University together, my professors who believed in me, the Pirate team who worked together as a team on and off the field, my family, my friends from all walks of life, and my students from the very first day I stepped into that classroom. I inherited the spirit of expecting nothing, give everything, and measure your moments. Hard times will come, but can you measure the bad things that happen all the time or how focus on how you overcame them. Slowly, thanks to all those mentioned above, I found the latter to be true and stronger than anything I came to know.
and my Moms – was bittersweet and they know why. The fact that they never stopped believing in me when I did – that was everything.
2011. I find myself in Mexico (Mexico? Seriously? Me working in MEXICO?! I KNOW. My first year and I slowly started to realize, there are individuals here from Slippery Rock? NO WAY. There are students coming here from SLIPPERY ROCK to student teach? No WAY. “Jason, I know you are from Grove City, and you love the Steelers, where can we see a Steeler Game?” After that, everything was a magic ride to the ‘Burgh itself. Finding Charlie Blanco,
proprietor of the largest football fan club in Mexico, and just finding that place where all of my past and reasons for working hard “jelled” – I laughed at how some things you will never see how they will or could connect, in fact do later in life, it just is hard to put into words, impossible even.
January 10, 2016 I found myself surrounded by amazing friends and in that one room in Mexico City, we have the pride of Pittsburgh running through our screams, yells, and near heart-attacks, and the memories of everyting in the past comes back and yet one things was always there. The underlying theme we all held and have done – we believe in putting our everything into what we do – and as a result, good things are going to happen as a result, maybe not right away, and no one said it was going ot be easy, but if you have enough grit to keep your head up and look down the field, whether the pakying field or this extended game we call life, there are bound to be positive results, “if you just hang in there.”
I can easily say I can measure my life by yardsticks, but every single measurement has been the measurement of those around me – allowing me to keep going. From Harry Hawk, a brother in spirit and from Edinboro’s Phi Kappa Psi, even though we have not seen each other we still carry on like we haven’t missed a day, to Jason Schell keeping this life of memories alive every weekend game to John Powell being the most hysterical & reliable Commish alive, to all the people above, to all the coaches I was lucky enough to coach alongside, to my brother Bob throwing that football back in forth that day on Mercer Street in PA!, to the athletes that put their soul into everything, to the students who believed in me and made me stronger, to every single fiber that connected itself to the same grit that the Black and Gold represents, going “the extra mile” was just the way we lived our lives thanks to you. That is work everything Black and Gold, immaculate even…
Over and over and OVER. I think I finally know how to learn Spanish. Sit in a Mexican Bank and anything is possible. So it was Tuesday, after about 2 and a half hours with three people cutting in front of a few of us, and hearing the preview for a new album titled Oldvidarte – I had alot of time to do things – Create my 2016 Christmas list, create a To do list for the week, and know what I wanted to blog about next. I should have brought a book, but hopefully that is the last time I needed to be a frequent flyer in the Customer Service area of Bancomer Bank, while they were amazing and helped 100%, the wait is just half the story, right?
I get this question alot, “How does Mexico Celebrate Christmas and Day of the Dead?” While I have covered this in past blog posts in past years, I think it is worthy of revisiting. Regarding Christmas, I like the fact that Christmas is actually celebrated from December 16th to January 6th. Whoa, really? Absolutely. Similar to vendors starting right after Halloween in the states to bring out Christmas, at least in Mexico, while this does occur, the emphasis on the holiday is more tradition and family-based which you HAVE to love and can handle the early-ness due to the fact that it is obvious more emphasis is put on the tradition, family and friends – you can feel it.
Three Kings Day, which is huge here, on January 6th (there were three kings dressed up outside several restaurant establishments, with thousands (literally, I went to Costco and I stopped counting at like 980 on pallets) of boxes of Rosca de Reyes. IF you are lucky enough to find the baby Jesus that is baked inside, guess what? You get to host the meal February 2nd, for Dia de Candelaria. (I have one of these but found it on my own, not in company, and kept it. Sorry, no party). I am resolving to at least keep some of this tradition next year and make sure we make the Rosca de Reyes in the states 🙂 I might be “sick” early net year to truly capture the whole period of this tradition in honor of family, friends, and the tradition – Plus, there are SO MANY PLACES in Mexico that do a variety of celebrations – check them out.
Not exactly linking El Dia de Muertos, Day of the Dead with Christmas, but there is a common them I will get to in a minute if you haven’t guessed already. For Day of the Dead, the states’ equivalent of Halloween, but ranging from October 31st to November 2nd. Again, Halloween in the states is about candy (at least it was for me ) – in Mexico, amazing and awesome displays of family, tradition, and friends. Family being the highest ranking factor here. Altars, or ofrendas, are created and wow, they are usually amazing. Graveyards are filled with family remembering loved ones, (usually occurring on Nov 2nd) and usually completely surrounded by candles and the flowers, yellow marigolds, that light the way for the deceased. Not eerie at all as it sounds actually, when you change the theme of the celebration to family, friends, and this sense of tradition, it is amazing what meaning days and events take on.
None of it is horrifying, scary, or horrible, actually all of it is so much more enriching than the spiderman masks I used to slide into with the bags to gather candy, I like the fact that there is a much more familial tradition attached to the idea of Halloween I used to always know. Being a huge Prehispanic tradition, this idea of tradition and ritual is deeply embedded.
Take all this, and throw in the mix my visit to The Holocaust Museum in Washington D.C.. Not tied to either holiday by tradition, but by that one word, Oldvidarte, meaning to forget, you see now. There are a variety of ways to celebrate holidays no matter where you are in the world, but I realized, after had taken a Seminar on the Holocaust years ago at the University of Delaware, as well as having been lucky to have a student group that created a travelling mural project imitating the children’s tile project in the Holocaust museum, to not forget is one of the largest reason holidays are exemplified and important.
There are a thousand reasons to get caught up in Black Friday, or Christmas shopping, but without the deep-seeded reasons of celebrating, everything else is just superficial. I was at one point caught up in the lack of being prepared gift-wise this year, and then as soon as a set that aside and took just being among friends and family, the former fell into place and seemed to matter less. The same was true of being again in the Holocaust Museum, it IS a museum but is so much more than that, it is a symbol of why it is important to pass generations afterwards the importance that comes out of such a tragedy. Perpetrators, collaborators, Some Were Neighbors, dissenters, but then once realizing those divisions, taking all this memory and applying it today. That is the second level of awareness, where individuals that did not remember or did not live during the Holocaust learn from it and apply it to what happens every single day today in some areas.
Obviously The United States Holocaust Museum is an education in itself, but even more, whether Day of the Dead or Halloween, Christmas or posadas/Kings Day, or the Holocaust of the past or the recent/ current Holocausts that occur all over the world, to not forget is crucial. Only then can we make a difference. In this light, when I see Martin Luther King Day, it takes on a whole new meaning of what we should do, observe, and commit ourselves to pledge to make a difference, every chance we get. Walking through, amid, and among The Holocaust Museum, I realized, not necessarily thinking about which celebration is better than another in any given country, but being willing to, and taking advantage of being exposed to so many different views, allows you to take all of these practices and blend them into more meaningful ways to things about holidays, as well as past generations, and let the superficial elements of purchasing, buying elaborate gifts, and just the commercialism to be pushed back and let the real meanings of events and celebrations, and generations, come to the surface. That is the real gift that occurs when the ability to synthesize a variety of events, traditions, and celebrations, the real education settles in, and in this case, the Holocaust Museums helped represent all the reasons why definite acts should never be forgotten. They guide us to a better future if we are willing to open our eyes to it.
Not realizing the book I had purchased, in a thrift store for $1.99 no less, I poured through a book titled Resistence, by Anita Shreve, and it is just funny how you never know when themes of books, events, celebrations, etc will align with each other. Yet, here was a book taking place in Belgium during World War II reflecting on the atrocities that occur and individuals that risked their lives to fight against the overall theme of a holocaust of groups of people, and they certainly decided to become resistors, while the majority around them chose to be collaborators against a human race. The point is, you never know when elements of events, although seemingly unrelated – will “gel” or synthesize – and that truly is when education occurs.
I know at one time it was determined true grit and responsiblity to be at a job, and remain in that job for your whole life. I am truly grateful that is and has not ever been the case for me. I have found the amazing plethora of unique internships, jobs, and volunteerism I have taken so far in my life have been that very element, diversity that sometimes years later would synthesise together when I least expected it. The same is true of the responsibility of being a teacher, but now as a Media Specialist/Librarian, I am grateful for this position so that I can find so many different avenues of discovery and connect them to a wide range of experiences and make points when least expected. Part of not being able to forget is creating experiences that won’t be forgotten, whether in the classroom, in the work place, or in the day-to-day activities we decide to be involved in. In 2016, it is important to pledge energies to make a better life for yourself and those around you, often defined by the way we spend out time and choose to spend our time. Pledging to take in the widest array of traditions, beliefs, and individuals, to make a better future is not a bad way to initiate a change. Never forgetting in certain cases is the best thing we can do for that. Thank you Holocaust Museum, Mexico, United States, and friends that help me never “forget” that.
I like the fact that 2016 is – even more so than ever – a result of the year before and honestly, all the years before that. As the very first post of 2016 – and many say, you will in the New Year what you are doing as the new year comes in – it is appropriate that reflecting on the impact based on so may people over the years is ushering in the new year for 2016!
New Year’s all over the worldis kind of an amazing concept – using social media to tell how others and remind others, how much they have had an ipact on your life – and totally true in my own life – and I am enternally grateful for it.
Whether I am in Mexico, PA, D.C., Delaware, or a host of other places, I have always been lucky enough to carry around with me the individuals from my family, my students, my now grown up and emerging leaders formerly known as students (breath!) – and new friends from around the world, the traits that constantly let me reflect and grow into the person I still want to be. They stand by me on the grumpy days, the awaking in the morning days, the reflection days of the past, and looking to the future.
I continue to realize how much tolerance I have when it comes to using the past to get ahead with my future. Also, in looking back on some events of 2015 – I realize:
The issue of “Affluenza” is what you make of it, not just what and how you have been dealt with issues in life, but how YOU determine to control them controls ultimately, your place in the future.
I appreciate the presence of someone to make a change, and respect so may people for just making the effort, opposed to those who just idly sit by. Whether I agree with them or not, the initiative to make a change and divert from the mainstream – that is usually more of a noticeable opportunity to try and make oneself more than they are currently. I see this every day, be it in President Obama, to students around me, to students that were my students and are now making differences in their community, to colleagues, to of course family who have always encouraged that trait!
For the future – I honestly see this – the chance to be in touch more with family and friends, the chance to continue on a rapid pace to devour amazing sources of reading, using social media to spread promises of change and hope and positivity, and using the very influences in my life to respond to negativity and make it positive – each one if us are truly capable of that every day, though if it were easy we would learn so little -(difficult to remember that at the time!)
at all the places I have visited, be it restaurants, great local stores, and museums, which all help continue to make me reflect in so many different ways on what I see in the future – I noticed this as I went through the Smithsonian History Museum the other day and how different I look at things since the last few years – and glad I have my eyes even more wide open – without glasses even!
I wish sometimes I would have travelled and worked in another country so much earlier and then realized, the perfect it did occur was PERFECT for this reason – enabling myself to be entrenched in so many great and creative personalities and friendships and then adding to what I THOUGHT I knew about issues such as international views from outside of the U.S. (which covers everything from immigration, to opportunities we have as citizens of the U.S., to responsibilities we have as citizens looking back, to just looking from within and working with the many many changes I still need to make in myself).
One of the things I found myself so passionate about was this – going into an international experience in 2011 did not seal the deal forever for me to remain international all my life physically necessarily, but taking the IDEAL of being international and applying that to improve my own country – that is key and keeping international in your heart is what can make the difference for all those around us – and can change the future of our planet. The following look at 2015 is truly just a snapshot of these links:
Patiently waiting for the hoopla, I was anticipating when the moment would allow myself to see the latest Star Wars. Honestly, the first Star Wars movie for me, (it came out in 1977!) occurred in the theatre and the legions of items, memorabilia, collectibles, occurred around me from a child. That added to the excitement of what this latest movie offered. I guess you could say this latest release represented the catch-up phase of I recalled when Star Wars first appeared. Patiently waiting until I came to the states was difficult, yet, not so much when you considered holidays were upon us and the rush to get a ticket – it had to wait for me.
Seeing The Force Awakens this past week – I settled into a movie theatre for the 3D version in Chinatown, downtown D.C., and of course the music and message in the beginning was pretty – Star War-ish. Yet, I have to admit, I walked away with complete energy. Here’s why.
I found some scenes to be almost as I initially remembered sequences, the result, I LOVED IT. I recalled instantly the excitement when the X-Wing fighters descended and took care of the Death Star in the early episodes. I have to stay, images and scenes here closely resembled that, and yet, I was 100% completly glad as they made me feel the same way as I did when I first witnessed it.
There is the confrontation between the dark side and the force, between father and son, and while many probably knew this was inevitible, I enjoyed the repeat pattern, it had a totally different feel due to the backgrounds of the families. Again, some might hate the fact that this was repeated, for me, it was classic Star Wars.
Of course seeing characters come back for me made Star Wars. Age didn’t shock me in most cases, but honestly, it was difficult for me to realize that Leia was actually Leia, she has aged so much over the years while I thought Luke, Han, Cheewie, C3Po, R2D2 helped maintain the normality of Star Wars being the same. I almost thought several times Leia was played by someone else, that was the main real shocker for me.
I left excited to see and feel the way I felt when I first saw Star Wars as a child, and I was also glad to know things I expected to occur, did not, or did in some cases, but none of it spoiling the experience of what Star Wars has meant to me from the very beginning. I did not anticipate much surprise with Star Wars as most seemed to be predictable from those talking around me, but I cannot tell you how relieved I was that that was not the case this time 🙂
It’s funny, entering the Museum of American History and seeing such parts of my past, from computers to toys, to gadgets to home accessories that I grew up with, Star Wars has always been a part of that even though being a part of the fantastical element of growing up. It is similar to settling into your favorite chair, favorite reading spot, favorite position to nap, it is just plain comfortable and part of what I remember growing up. I think that is one of the most important take-aways that George Lucas has provided, and one that aligns with growing up with The Muppet Show, The Gong Show, Viewfinders and the whole lot of just, what it meant to appreciate the simple things, and not so simple things, thanks to individuals like George Lucas.
I had a fear I would go into Star Wars and see a film that had already outgrown myself, from remembering the first Star Wars as a child. Not feeling this way at all allowed me to fully enoy the film and realize George Lucas made Star Wars timeless up to this point, which in itself is priceless.Yet I know Disney now is responsible for the fate of Star Wars – however, George Lucas started it all.
As the New Year approaches (IT IS CLOSE!) , each of us fall into that range of New Year’s resolutions. In looking back, there are several stances you can take.
I see alot of goals that fell short of what I wanted to occur, not meeting my National Novel Writing goal of 50,00o words, working through two classes at a Yale and Duke classes and not quite getting to the end of each course, not winning out at as #1 of my Fantasy Football league
(Sheesh, how did I get to be #2? – Really?! I was crazy luck this year!), seeing the Steelers NOT take advantage of key games and falling short of expectations, not reaching my goal of 60 books read for the year ( I am STILL WORKING ON THAT!) and that is just the beginning. Yet, I find myself in a weird arena.
I find myself amazingly grateful for the experiences to begin with, for I learned MUCH about myself. I found even from the things that do not fall into earth shattering and important, that I help my health, I have the many chances to experience so many things, some firsts – such as my first beach in Mexico – and I find I am getting stronger for the attempts. We had a great year on behalf of the Repentino. staff for our 2014-2015 publication, with much promise and growth with a new staff for 2015-2016 – growing pains that certainly lend itself to growing in widsom on how we do things. I have found myself looking to areas where I can grow academically and intellectually towards the future.
I see my future and mysel changing thanks to the shortcomings – which I never thought I could, world, or should embrace. I want a future where I maintain the contacts I have currently maintained, hard and difficult at times, yet – worth it every step of the way. I have become so much better at managing my time, and saving that time for myself – as well as investing time, money, and plans for the future and rolling great investments out for all of those currently. Not much to ask for more than that.
Library and Media Specialist Webinars, being more exact with selections for the library and being able to be better at trends, pattersns, and classes for educators, Repentino podcasts, delving into sports and giving recognition where it is due, as well as realizing, negatives are a part of us, not meant to be separated but dealt with to make each of us stronger and learn something about ourselves. These are powerful lessons, and maybe the most powerful I have learned since being in Mexico and overall for myself. I realized everytime I come to the states I have grown from my experiences of being in Mexico, and being in the states again has redefined itself for me, and for the better. That is a gift in itself. So as we approach two more days until that New Year’s mark for us, think aboiut what you have done, what has happened, and what will occur to let you grow and be content with your life, others being a part of that plays a HUGE part 🙂
Then there is Star Wars 🙂 – YES! I finally saw it last night! 🙂 That is a post in itself, and yes, working on that !
The post title might throw you off, but don’t let it. I realized from the very beginning, as Christmas approached, there are so many aspects of Christmas this year that brought back the feeling of the way I felt as a little kid. This is why.
As I prepare for Christmas officially, (official in my book was putting on the first CD and movie and setting the pewter Christmas tree I have in Mexico, covered with items from around thw world thanks to friends) – I felt it inside.
This year, I felt this strange mix of dread say about the beginning of December. I have truly no idea where this came from, but the dread was emananting from being at a point in my life where I had pushed myself forward, into some new and unusual situations, and found myself on the other end for the first time with no definite direction for the future, nothing solid anyway. That never happened to me, I always had a definite plan. Yet, here was was free falling – I kind of liked it but some part of me still did not know how to handle it exactly at moments.
Holidays finally came, and I knew some basic things. The friends, family, and situations I had built up to this moment were pretty darn great, othwrwise I would have had half the friends I made. Also, I realized the excitement of seeing friends in the states, the excitement of getting a well deserved rest from the pace I put myself on to acheive and get many tasks done, all of it, a blessing.
As I sit here in the states now getting ready to join family for a day of Christmas, I miss my dogs desperately, I realize I love the country of Mexico and the reasons it has family and celebrations at the core of its culture, and I love the states and appreciate them even more with the contrast between the two countries.
All along, I have met so many new people just entering the states back for the holidays this year, I have met so many new people and close friends in Mexico City that have helped me develop a bigger picture of myself in this world, and I have learned to appreciate the fact that the best things that cause the Christmas spirit? – They can’t be seen, bought, or held all the time, they remain inside of you.
I guess you can imagine it as a rebirth of what Christmas should be, the more retailers push what they see Chrsitmas as, the more individuals can push back and hold close what the true spirit if Christmas is. Is truly is all around us every day, and this spirit allows us to find ourselves in the mix of parphanalia that really has nothing to do with Christmas. In that search you , (at least myself) have been able to find a deeper, truer meaning of Christmas.
I do not agree with the craziness of politics, world tragedies, gun problems, crime within the very institutions we put our trust in, and so much more and yet, it is up to each of us to push the hope and understanding of how we can better those very aspects for the people we care about around us. I have been able to receive that hope thanks to the very students, friends, and family I try to model that for. Modeling that initiative of finding the truer meaning of ourselves and a deeper meaning of the spirit of Christmas, thanks to those we surround ourselves with.
Just when we think you have the future, the present and yes, even the past, figured out, there is a new facet that presents itself you didn’t see coming. I never, in my wildest dreams, saw Mexico as a possibility. It changed my life. Just as the very people involved in that possiblitiy along the way changed my life. The colleagues, students, and indviduals that enabled that, supported that event, and supported that possiblity helped make that change.
Each of us have a single moment where there are alot of “invisible” individuals that helped make the change. They continue to become clearer as the realizations become clearer, about yourself, the world around you, and who is around you to bring you back up when you are down. When you get back up, you usually are better than before, thanks to these experiences.
In more ways you realize at the moment. I am fortunate enough to count the number of friends on Facebook, the number of hits I have on my blog, and the number of emails I receive and be thankful for each one, every single one equals an amazing contribution to an experience I am grateful for today. There is alot more I could want, or ask for, but never truly be happy for, and those very things, maybe visible in hits, posts, and friends, provide ten thousand more reasons to be thankful that can’t be seen, and while maybe invisible to the masses, carry me through each day with a stonger step than the day before.
Wherever you are, please have a VERY Merry Christmas, a Happy New Year, and take in every single moment in a way that will remain with you as you move forward i your life! Thank you everyone for being patient, kind, and generous every step of the way through my single adventure!
As I entered Union Station, a great great stop from Amtrak to hit D.C.!, I navigated to one of my favorite stops, The Swatch Watch Store in Union Station. Since I obtained a Swatch from ASF from a Halloween contest years ago – I am always finding myself there. I had met about two years ago Jason Phillps and Gabrielle at the Swatch Watch Store who had fixed me up with a new band. At the same time we had the 2014-2105 Repentino. and were trying to get pictures of it all over the place as a promo video.
It was the perfect addition ot our video and 2 years later I walk in, and no WAY! He is there, and he remembers! He is a totally laid back, awesome, positive, and helpful individual and Repentino. was lucky enough to have him willingly be a part of a international promotion – he is a perfect example of a person you’d want to know, and he willingly extends his hand out to everyone.
We hope Repentino. can continue to live up to the characteristics that Jason showed us that day 🙂 Repentino. extends a great holiday wish to each and everyone out there, and credits everyone for helping us become a well-known production, not just the magazine, the Open Mic’s, the concessions, the boosting of Sport and School Spirit, and the many explorations into artsits we do from podcastsm to blogs to so much more – thank you for keeping the spirit of Art in so many forms, alive!